just some angry thoughts...

I did not really know what to blog about this week and I am trying to get my homework done while I am really angry and it is really hard to blog when you are mad. All of the blogs I try to comment on I end up wanting to say really mean things and I do not want to come across as a bitch so I am not commenting on anything until I am in a better mood but this makes it hard to get homework done. However, I can post my new blog and at least get that out of the way. :) So anyway I am angry tonight because of my daughter's grandparents. I had to take my daughter to their house last night because I was going out of town for the night and they knew that I would not be back until later on today but they know that I am always ready to see her after being away from her for any amount of time. So I got home this evening around 7 and went to pick her up but when I got there the house was dark and all of the vehicles were gone. So now I have not seen my daughter in over 24 hours and I am starting to freak and I have no idea where she is. If they were going to take her somewhere they could have at least let me know right?! So after calling and texting multiple times and getting no response I finally recieve a text saying, "we are in sparta I will let you know when we are almost to your house". It really aggrivated me the way that it was worded maybe just because I was already upset about not knowing where my daughter was but reguardless I felt they could have been a little more considerate. I did not respond because I did not want to start any big fight but I am really mad and want to see my daughter right now! I came through Sparta and could have picked her up on my way through and she could be home with me right now.

Time for the holidays..

It is amazing to me how October was so laid back and easy to handle and now we are already in Novemer, even in the first weeks I have been so busy! It seems like every appointment I have made all year has ended up in November. School is getting more intense for the end of the semester and dealing with a sick one year old on top of everything does not make things any easier. It is time to start thinking about the holidays and plan for them Thanksgiving is right around the corner and I can not believe it! Then immediately after that it is time to start thinking about Christmas. The baby is 18 months old this month so that means it is time to do pictures again which works out perfect because they make great Christmas gifts or go in Christmas cards. Christmas is always fun when kids are involved. It may be a little more crazy and demanding but it is so fun. I am looking forward to finding a cute Christmas dress or outfit and we have already started Christmas shopping so she should have a good Christmas this year. The only problem is that I can not seem to wait until Christmas to give stuff to her I have given her almost all of her presents early already so I am going to have to store them at someone elses house I think. I am excited and ready for the holidays though.

The end of Halloween fun

Well the baby is doing better thankfully. She was teething but that first night was the worst of it she has not acted like she is in pain anymore from teething and her fever broke the next day and she was left with only the cold symptoms. She was down to just a runny nose as of about Thursday. I was glad she was feeling better because we took her trick or treating in Chester on Saturday. She was Minnie Mouse, she was so adorable and she loved her costume. Everytime she tried it on for someone she squealed and ran around waiting for everyone to tell her how cute she looked, she is very silly like that. Trick-or-treating was a lot of fun and I enjoyed watching her face light up when everyone gave her candy and told her how cute she was. I do not know if every town does this or not but Chester has a town trick or treat night which I thought was kind of weird because when I was little trick or treating was always done on Halloween no matter what day it was on and you went until you got tired and went home. Now in Chester they have it on a certain night depending on when Halloween is and it was from 5-9 it was definately different being on a type of schedule for trick or treating. Also last weekend I went to the darkness and creepyworld in St. Louis and had a lot of fun. We went in a little drunk so that made it that much better. I liked creepyworld better because it was longer I think. I thought they werer worth the money though. And I guess that wraps up the fun Halloween stuff now we just get that nasty cold weather that I hate!

On the mommy frontier...

Isn't it amazing how easy it is to talk about your kids at any given time? Well unfortunately my little girl is sick this week. She came home from her dads on Sunday and she had the fever and runny nose, all the parents out there know how much fun the runny nose is. She was of course very crabby and needed a lot of attention and I could not get anything done all day. I can not make up my mind if she is sick or just teething however. She is only about 18 months old so she could definately be teething, she has the clear runny nose like she is teething and the fever and crabbyness could also be linked to the teething, she is drooling like crazy as if she is teething and you can see the whitness of a tooth trying to come in on the bottom so I am thinking now that she is sick along with the teething. She cried most of the night and not a normal cry you could tell something was hurting her and she seemed to calm down after I put the orajel on. So I gave her some children's advil for the fever and laid with her until she fell asleep. I am going to give her a day or two and see how she is doing and if she is still sick I will probably end up taking her to the doctor to hopefully get her some medicine to help her feel better. Sound more like teething or sick? Anyone care to share an opinion?

Lying...

First of all you should never lie to a girl because you will get caught unless you are lying to one of those girls that completely refuse to believe that their boyfriend would lie to them. I am not one of those girls. If you lie to me I WILL catch you and make you regret it. The littlest simplest sign got him caught in a lie and he continued to try to lie to me. Now, second of all you do not lie to someone that you "love". Lying will get you no where but in trouble. You know what they say, if you tell one lie you have to tell another to cover that one and then another to cover that one. Well he did not get the chance because he got caught in the first one. Well trust has to be earned and as if that is not hard enough to do it is even harder to regain someones trust. Well with me trust is all you get and once you loose that you are done. Yes I do have trust issues but that is all the more reason that you should really think about everything before you decide to lie to me. Lying no matter how big or small is always a bad thing to do in any relationship and is only going to create problems. You get one chance to come clean and you should use that chance to do so because it is only going to be ten times worse if you get caught lying.